A frustrating morning

I am really frustrated this morning. A lady on a blind singles list I am on called to vent and this person is so high maintenance that it is not even funny. Everytime I went to say something, she just bullied her way and talked over me. If she calls again and does this, I am just going to have to ask er to let me in the conversation or not call me back. I feel like I ahve been hit with a sledge hammer and it is not even 10:00 yet.
I know that she was accused of being rude on a conference call and if she acted there like she did to me this morning, I would have to concur with that assessement. I finally had to tell her that I had to go because I had laundry to get in the washing machine and needed two hands. It worked out perfectly because I missed things that had to be washed and was happy to have gotten off of the phone and set up the talking caller I.D. in case she calls back and it will even tell me who is beeping me on my call waiting. I am almost getting to the point where I don't answer the call waiting. I hate that stuff and it is a real pain.
I feel tired already and I am trying to get laundry done and guess I need to go and get some work in the kitchen done.
I wasn't going to get on the bike or treadmill, but at this point it might take away some of the stress I am feeling right now.


Really frustrated tonight

I am really frustrated tonight. I have been trying something that my doctor recommended and it is not working like I would have thought it would have. He told me to cut the Ambian tablets in half and take it for seven days and then take Metellolen and that is not working. I tossed and turned for about one hour, so got up and took a full tablet and it is beginning to work.
I am just hoping that I am not getting addicted to this drug, but it is the only thing that has helped me sleep since Sue died last year and plan on talking to Kathy about it in the morning when I have my counseling session with her. I really like her and she has given me real perspective on my life and that is a great thing and am hoping that talking about this to her will work too so we will wait and see.


Less than six weeks

Less than six weeks now until I sail for the Carribean. I have been looking forward to this since October and cannot wait to go.
It is something I have never done before and am looking at it like a big adventure and that will be fun. Of course Major will be going withme and would never even think about doing something like this without my boy, so it shouldbe fun.
Counseling seems to be going well and has given me a good perspective on my grief and life in general and for that I am thankful too.


Feeling better

I am beginning to feel better. I really think that the grief counseling is giving me perspective on things and that is great. I think I ahve needed it and I really do like Kathy my counselor because she is so easy to talk to and is so non-judgmental; and that is what i need.
I have no idea how much longer I will need her services, but know that she is there when I need her and that is a great thing too.