A little depressed

I am a little depressed today. The funeral home delivered the death certificates a little while ago and to say the least, that took some of the wind out of my sails. I know that it is necessary to process the life insurance and do the other things that I am going to need to do, but still it makes things so final too.
I am glad that we finally got them, even though I still did not want to see it. I am going to go to the district office as soon as I can get a ride and then go from there.

Becoming final

I got a call from the funeral home this morning telling me that they will be picking up the death certificate this afternoon and will either be delivering them to me or mailing them to me. I know that I am excited about getting things rolling with the paperwork, but am not excited at all about seeing it because it makes things so final and that still really stings.
I really appreciate the way that this place has worked with me and taking care of things for me as well.

Finally getting somewhere

I am finally getting somewhere. I called the funeral home this morning and found out that it might take up to four weeks to get the death certificate and was told if I wanted it faster that I had to call the Department of Health and that is exactly what I did this afternoon, and thankfully it will be ready for them to pick up in the morning and when they call me, I will see if they can send it to the Dunbar Road location and either I will go and get it or see if they will bring it to me and am sure that they will. This will get me on the road to processing the life insurance as well as starting to get everything else done that I need to do as well and that will be good.
I am going to call my attorney in the morning to see aobut a couple of things including probate and I may not have to go through that and that will be just fine with me if I do not have to mess with that and will be cheaper as well.
Things are looking up even though I am not looking forward to seeing the death certificate, but also realize that it is necessary.

A rough day

I thought that I was going to be all right handling Easter yesterday, but it was much harder than I would have ever imagined happening. It was just emotionally hard not having Sue there with me especially at my parents house, but I survived and now I am awake after going to the bathroom and am going to go and try and get a few more hours sleep.
I know that this is all part of the process and I have had several good days and knew that this would more than likely be hard, and it was definitely harder than I thought it was going to be, but definitely made it through.
I learned how to use my washing machine and have washed one load of clothes already and will dry them after having breakfast and coffee as well.

Really tired tonight

I am really tired tonight and think it is because I woke up so early this morning. I am going to try the Melotonen that mom got me starting tonight and just see how well this will work over the long haul. I am just sleepy and had a great supper. I ordered the macaroni and cheese with bacon from Pizza Hut and it was really pretty tasty and have plenty of leftovers and may even freeze what I don't eat before I go out of town on Friday. I am definitely looking forward to going to the mountains and even got my hiar cut today and that felt really great.

Just venting

I am just venting right now because I have had trouble finding Major's heartworm medication this morning. I know that my well meaning mother-in-law moved it and it took me three or four times to find where it was located. Now don't get me wrong, I have appreciated the help, but am tired of people putting things where I cannot find them, that is really beginning to piss me off.
I think otherwise I have had a decent day even though I woke up way too early and am looking forward to getting my hair cut in a little while too. Mom is on the way and I think I will just hit a drive thru on the way and pick up a sandwich.

Up too early

I think that this one says it all. I am up too early, but at 4:30, I just could not sleep any longer. I had a good glass of wine before I went to bed and because of the changes in my system after gastric bypass, it really buzzed me, but went to sleep pretty fast, but got up a little over an hour after I went to bed to go to the bathroom, but went back to sleep and then am now up and it is much earlier than I would really like it to be.
I have coffee going and will just go and watch the news for right now since I have already checked my email. I am looking forward to getting my hair cut later on this morning and may order either a pizza or pasta from Pizza zHut for supper because I am getting kind of tired of everything that is here in the house as well and since I am going out of town for a week on Friday morning, I really don't want much in the refrigerator too. I have some things I can eat, but am getting kind of tired of them and have only been out to eat one time since Sue died and for me, that is some sort of a record as well.I am just going to hang in there and am really jazzed that I am also going to be getting the death certificate soon as well.